An angel on his two knees, arms stretched towards the red sea; of violence and a sultry tongue.

-Friday, August 31, 2007-

[Helbreath]

hihihih this is something new i ate 3 italian bmts in 2days. lol all thanks to the gaming fiesta and the subway promotion -.-

pretty satisfied cuz we won both of our matches today, will be playing against team RP tmr and after we win, will proceed to the last/last2 games on sunday. wahahah imbal then now i dling stuff for my helbreath prvt server. cant wait to play sia. CALLING ALL EX-HELBREATH PLAYERS / INTERESTED MMORPGERS who wana play a pvt server (minimal training needed) just pk/pvp/bosshunting :) msn me or tag!

[Love, J] ;11:30 PM;

-Wednesday, August 29, 2007-

[YET another daily conversation with YY]

As the title implies, here's not YAWLE but YAYYC (yet another YY coversation)

j says:
920
yy - all are empty talk says:
plus got porn corn : (
yy - all are empty talk says:
WTF
yy - all are empty talk says:
PORN
yy - all are empty talk says:
..
j says:
wow porn corn
j says:
thx yy
so many times i'd planned, to be much more than who i am says:
....
yy - all are empty talk says:
pop*
so many times i'd planned, to be much more than who i am says:
....
so many times i'd planned, to be much more than who i am says:
your mind really
yy - all are empty talk says:
OMG
yy - all are empty talk says:
NOOOOOOOOOO

well i did say he's a national treasure did i not?? ^^

[Love, J] ;7:54 PM;

-Tuesday, August 28, 2007-

[Ketchup effect]

haha just woke up and was greeted by the heavy rain. that explains why i dreamnt of my insecurities, i like rain, but not that heavy cause it intimidates me rofl.

wanted to blog abit bout dota but i think i've done that awhile ago so i'll give it a pass. hmm now that the holidays are here and i have no reason to procrastinate, really ought to tidy up my room instead of keep thinking of doing it. fine i shall nonono WILL do it after this post. ohh and here's one of the most hilarious vid i've seen on youtube http://youtube.com/watch?v=IvhNwfm6bpI HAHAHA must go watch!!

Some things to look forward to:

think i'll be taking out braces soon. am looking forward to not getting pieces of food stuck in my mouth after every meal! (:

gaming fiesta interschool dota compy this friday, 12:30 match. hehee so excited i hope we win.

china trip 10th sept. well i guess sightseeing at those magnificient natural geographical sights is soemthing new.

This holiday is so important lah.. it's like our last hols cuz next hols we'll be down with ITP (no it's not an illness) a.k.a attachment. argghhhh academics. will try to spend quality time this hols and make it a memorable one.

now speak softer rain, you're dampening me.

[Love, J] ;1:10 PM;

-Saturday, August 25, 2007-

[EEEterrrnaalllll]

yippppppeee exams are finally over. hee spent the 1st night of holidays at zy's house slacking n playing mahjong. sad to say lady luck wasn't in my favour. then slept for 7hours and had to rush down to suntec for registeration for the gaming fiesta. barely had time to head home for a shower :( miss my bed!!!

haha i like suntec and it's vicinity. dad used to bring me there alot, back then there wasn't a big durian by the river.

after registering went for some lan gaming. met some faces, jj and ppl. ooo i finally bought my moving rubber, got the green one and it looks cuteee!

anyway, trying to figure out why im having such moodswings. maybe i want something to happen, yet i havent done my part to make it happen. well JUST MAKE IT HAPPEN PLEASSSEEE :(

gonna go sleep soon damn tired. anddd ohhh i miss you bed.

[Love, J] ;9:54 PM;

-Tuesday, August 21, 2007-

[Flow]

Hoping for the best and being disappointed is usually better than expecting the worst and being right.

teenage life is a bitch, but also interesting to an extent. haha am supposed to study for fma paper but my not very timely mood to play has taken over me. been spending my spare time on dota and wc3 standard game recently. trying to improve on standard cause it's like the game where you rely on yourself, make or break it's all up to you. i quite like that (: some peeps said it's old or outdated but it doesn't affect me, as long as you like it, go for it says jm.

the truth is, wait there's no truth. there's just perspective. from my perspective, you are the one that choose your actions and your feelings. you choose to filter what people say to you, you choose to interpret, you choose how you let others affect you.

recently have been losing alot while gaming(drafting), i mean we are a new team and success doesn't come to you in a day. i can see that we are learning from our mistakes and doing better in every following matches we play. honestly losing 10 out of 12 matches is some fucked up record, but i will say it was normal (just for this case) because we have played against not normal teams, it was like sending an inexperienced cub to go hunt a wildboar.

grr now some1 just asked me why i got no girlfriend. damn i hate that question, its not that i don't want ya? stupid dskadasd. nvm i'll have sth to blog about next entry. hahha til then.

life is like a drumstick, hit it to produce sound or swivel it to produce style.

[Love, J] ;1:28 PM;

-Sunday, August 19, 2007-

[See the changes]

looked out of my window the first thing i woke up, saw some kids playing soccer at the void deck. they were like yelling and laughing, having so much fun. sorta reminded me of my past. man things change too much as you grow older. the innocence and generosity of the past have all gone to the void. but i will still keep my hopes of having such fun.

i dont get it when i read people's blogs, more than 90% of those entries are there to complain or say negative stuff. it has like become a trend, maybe it's a way for people to recognize you as a person of negativity so they can call you emo. and the irony of this post is that i am also posting something which is negative i guess. HAHA now tahts funny =x i mean seriously la our generation is like so fucking screwed. people are trying hard to be sad and when they are they spread this aura around to everyone. the most nonsensical part is that in actual they have most of the stuff they want/need, or rather nothing to be really sad about.

now im actually pretty glad that altho i'm not close to mom, dad is always being supportive and really loving. bringing us to see the world, trying his best to let us lead a good life. conflicts may arise at times, but it's perfectly normal in every relationship. and i must say that in my opinion he is without a doubt the best dad.

some of the blogs have given their ratings of money, that money = power. true, to a certain extent, but DPDO is the word. i don't see how your life will be so much happier with more money, it will just lead to something like the first part of my entry. to me it will just save you some time and ease burdens. true joy comes from the heart, it comes from love, it comes from fulfilment of important issues. material things can bring satisfaction, not happiness. it can't fill an empty heart, it can only numb the empty heart. ok my eng is too sucky to describe what i feel, but the bottomline is like money can only let you be happy for awhile, that the happiness wont last.

under the 101ways on how to be happy handbook, #7 states that one should focus on getting MUST haves, reach for SHOULD haves and if after getting your hands on those 2 and you still have extra resources, then go for the GOOD TO haves. ok jk i dunno if such a handbook exists. well that's all i have for the sad people. ok blog again soon not enough time today= x

[Love, J] ;3:40 PM;

-Saturday, August 18, 2007-

[Scar or hinderance?]

hi guys havent been updating for awhile... haha had no time cuz of schoolwork and dota. now, life's pretty fine, 2 more papers to go and its holidays again!

yesterday went to marina sq after MR paper, finally bought my polo tee.then dunno who suggest watching 881 so we just went ahead and it didnt turn out to be as bad as i expected it to be. in fact it was pretty funny and changed some of my views on hokkien songs rofl. after that stayed to watch fireworks. wasnt as nice compared to national day's but still fireworks are dope. had to wait for the nerd jw to finish his stuff with tiff then went to stay at his house. just came back home and im waiting for those idiots to get online so we can DOTA!! hooked to the dota song once again after seeing wenkai's nick T_T

anyway i need help ppl, have an injured shoulder then cannot do vigourous stuff. should i go for this operation on my shoulder so i can become normal again which will result in a scar on my shoulder OR should i just do nothing about it then when i go NS i will have to be stationed at some crappy post instead of being a SNIPER!! personally i wana go for the operation but i'm lets say a pussy, cuz i dont want a scar on my shoulder. damn ugly and disgusting la . ahhh why must this happen to me lol. hahaha ok and ck and yy pls join spsu with me thanks (you all shld know !). update agian sooon.

[Love, J] ;5:31 PM;